Thursday, May 17, 2007

感情亮了红灯?

真的很不懂最近发生了什么事...浑身很不对劲,两个人好像很有距离感...仿佛同一个世界突然间一分为二...我明白她近来很忙,所以很不介意她在短讯或一般的通讯上少些联络...直到,昨天,我终于开口说出我的感受...
真的很不明白,为什么坏的感受会让两个人同一时间感受...
其实昨天,应该是很高兴的一天但回到家有种悲痛莫名的感觉...两个人在网上谈得很淡...突然间很不习惯,眼泪已经很不争气地划下来了...谈到一半时就觉得不想谈了,那时就想抱着枕头大哭然后睡...然后,她就先写了“我今天很高兴,但也很伤心”,我就接着上“我也一样,今天的统统的娱乐都有了但很伤心,眼泪不停的流”...接着接着,就发现了根源,就是“我们都是从两个不同的世界的人,话不投机,意见不和,兴趣不一样,还有我不够成熟”。
她很希望她的另一半是和她“意见一致,话题也源源不绝,相同的家庭背景和成熟的男人”。从开始到现在,她都很在意这些问题...
然而,我觉得在电话上倾述会比较好,一而再再而三的不接我的电话,终于第三次接了...大家都一致觉得感情亮了红灯,她有她坚持的立场,我也奈何不了...毕竟,她也蛮转牛角尖的人,一就是一...她觉得彼此没必要改善自己,酱会失去了自己...我真的不懂她如何想的,她也承认她不是一般的人反而是很难相处的人...
这五个月的感情不短也不长,我只是叹气的是我不能做到理解她的人而是她在旅行时结缘的男人...
一位三十出头的结婚男人并且还暗恋着我的女友...醋意肯定多多少少都是有,真的满佩服他可以对我女友讲出她心里和针针见血的话...我女友也澄清跟他没有暧昧关系,我也明白...她是怎样的人,我也逐渐地摸到了...只是需要时间让我去成长和了解她...她就是要她的“MR.Right”像那个男生般...我也不怪她...只是希望她能接受我的渐渐的改变,我也有我的“理想情人”啊...某个老友都说我和她很登对,还梦见我们在一起...我高心听到酱的话,但我现在有我真真爱的人,不想痴痴的追求“理想情人”,我很不想轻易地放手,但如果双方真的无法挽回时,酱就没得谈了...
结果,她就拿这几天的时间来考量我,在两个小时的谈话中也化解彼此的悲痛莫名的感受,还好我也蛮敏感的...察觉到这几天的不对劲,茶饭不思...种种不好的现象出完来...
真的好难受...彼此的距离有如十万八千里...
我也尽量的挽留,庆幸的是挽留到了...相反,我完完全全的失眠,我是很奇怪的人,睡眠时肯定会发梦,百分百...为了不让我在梦里胡思乱想,我的潜意识就让我失眠...
最后的一句,希望她能看到...
宝贝,就让时间慢慢地让我成长吧,成熟和慢慢了解你...人会随着岁月而改变,无可否认...
祝我们爱情长跑,请你等候吧...你也该让自己坚持的立场软化不然终究会错过很多美好的东西...
>.< 失眠~~~

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

" Girls VS Grown Women..." (good shit nia, no joke)

Girls leave their schedule wide-openand wait for a guy to call and makeplans.
Grown women make their own plans andnicely tell the guy to get in where he fits

Girls want to control the man in theirlife.
Grown women know that if he's truly hers, he doesn't need controlling.

Girls check you for not calling them.
Grown women are too busy to realize you hadn't.

Girls are afraid to be alone.
Grown women revel in it-using it as a time for personal growth.

Girls ignore the good guys.
Grown women ignore the bad guys.

Girls make you come home.
Grown women make you want to come home.

Girls worry about not being pretty and/or good enough for their man.
Grown women know that they are pretty and/or good enough for any man.

Girls try to monopolize all theirman's time ( I.e., don't want him hanging with his friends).
Grown women realize that a lil' bit of space makes the 'together time' even more special-and goes to kick it with her own friends!

Girls think a guy crying is weak.
Grown women offer their shoulder and a tissue.

Girls want to be spoiled and 'tell' their man so.
Grown women 'show' him and make him comfortable enough to reciprocate without fear of losing his 'manhood'.

Girls get hurt by one man and make all men pay for it.
Grown women know that that was just one man.

Girls fall in love and chase aimlessly after the object of their affection,ignoring all 'signs'.
Grown women know that sometimes the one you love, don't always love you back-and move on, without bitterness.

Girls will read this and get anattitude.
Grown women will read this and pass it on to other Grown women and their male friends.

How "Pathetic" am I

Recently, i really dunnoe receive so many comments from every1...
1st of all, my gf...I really not sure is she make complain or comment on me...but sound de same nia...
always said: " u aint know how to "comfort" me..."
lolX, i really dunnoe wat way she wana me to do... i juz only tried my best to make her happy nia...
Moreover, i really hate sum1 call me "fei zhai" behind of me...really is a forbidden words for me lah...keep calling me as "fei zhai" in msn while chatting wif her bro...aikz....sian, already told her not to call me fei zhai since last time she msn wif Lew Ong...Yet, always "ribut taufan" happen in her house...Especially "Hainan Taufan"
I know after i post this stuff she sure beh song 1...but for the sake of balance my emotional, i really gonna post it...

Marlo, nowadays so many "NOT REALLY CLOSE" friend keep asking me to attend their 21st birthday party...
Really MING DA MING (明打明)is really gonna earn my money loh...if they have de party juz like dinner, then i dun mind to "Pao" de ang pao around 50 bucks loh...summore invite in home nia...really so desperate to earn back de money meh?(生日都想赚钱吗) (though, i know sum of them got children liao lah, RECENTLY DIAPER's price raised up liao meh?

POKAING now...car need to maintain as well...lazy to go out nia...
God spare me a lucky number lah...With wealth then only can live life happily nia...

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