情人节快乐，亲爱的...

今天总觉得很闲~闲到去听听华健的旧歌，他的歌永远都是大家的最爱...
也可以说无时无刻都会哼上几句...
然而，这首歌让我想起我的女友...
怎么说呢？我总是在不对的时刻弄她生气咯~
很多次都左耳进，右耳出...
在这我只想说“对不起”每次无厘头的搞笑，别太认真,愚人说蠢话嘛...
呵呵...
这是我们第三次渡过情人节...前两次无法一起庆祝,实在太对不起你了...
希望这一次能隆重的庆祝一番~
情人节快乐...我爱你~

feel free to fly!

finally exam over and i pass my thesis!
wooohoo~
damn syok man!
feel free to be poison with dslr as well!
weeeeeee~
de feel was so great juz like u as light as a feather...burdenless~
at last I FINSIH MY ADVANCED DIPLOMA!

摄影的艺术...

近几个月来和dslr的接触,单镜相机带给我无穷的乐趣，同时也让我的荷包大出血...
第一架相机是sony a200,蛮不错的相机...但iso去到400时，zoom in 的画面很糟...
结果就跳槽到nikon D90...斋机身就3千了...T.T 所以就d90 和 廉价的prime lens 配合咯~
以上的都是我和相机的来历...
但我所要表达的是“相机”的艺术...
在过去几个月的时刻，我也参与了几个出外取景的...学的都是基本学...
但自从和我的表哥交流后，发觉了很多朋友摄影都是拍表面美丽的画面，昆虫，再不然就是妹妹照...
都让我觉得很缺乏内涵...
对我而言,一张照片一定要拥有内涵，所谓的内涵就是你要表达的讯息,无论是虚构的还是真实...
从摄影大师的一句“从灵开始”启发了我对艺术的坚持...
头脑里满是摄影的主题，角度和意识~
也许在20号后，我就会接纳我的d90去开始我的摄影历程...发掘我内心的疑问和想要表达的内涵...
摄影的美学就是拍下当时的事物并且加以压缩个人要表达的内涵,让当时的情景一一表现出来...
一张美的照片,也许美得让人叹一口但也有可能是空虚的...
风景的话就难免咯...哈哈...也许很多人一定不认同我的想法,
但我已经铁定了心坚持走我的摄影的路线和去向,冲吧！

LIFE WITH ACCIDENTS~

At the very begining i tot this year aint gonna have any accident,manatau?!
i really dunnoe wat's going to me during these couple of days...
Car accidents happen twice in 1 week...
looks like my pathetic life will keep bang the cars instead of leng lui...
How could de continuous accidents keep happening?!
last week i bang my bro in-law's bro car...the new series of honda civic...
i couldn't nvr imagine the leading-edge technology branded was so soft...really wtf!
even a waja tougher than it...i was driving the waja at the moment...
n i have to admit that this accident happen is due to my reckless accelerate before re-check back de front car in roundabout...too much focus on the traffics in roundabout...

but during this morning accident, i think suppose is opponent's fault because then i juz turn in de corner from traffic congested mrr2...it's a straight road and while i wana swift to my 3rd gear, i saw a reckless saga version owner turning right into the junction without any waiting...juz like wat i did in few years back(think opponent car would have an emergency break)darn!
n de very 1st moment de bloody "mar chan" came down keep smoking and annoying about "u r too fast, u r too fast"
fuck if i care, if i'm wana turn into a junction make sure the road is clear for foreseeable period like 3 seconds,n he juz turn straight away...
n tat moment i still breaking my car n turn my steer to the right to avoid it but still the big bang came from my left side...

unfortunately, i shouldn't break instead of keep accelerate bang straight to his engine or the front door, let him taste the cheapkit glass split through his bloody face...in the end, i hit his rear door...

look alike i really need to have a "luck change" ceremony...bad days~gimme kena my car plate number 4d mah...deng!

我只是个“无赖”

无奈的时刻写下心声，你若听不进也不打紧，
因为感情路上不只我，放弃的原因不必太多，
只因为爱你才需放手，也许我为了习惯才爱，
倒不如大家尝试自由，让大家对爱重新检讨，
少了彼此依靠的理由，才能让大家了解彼此，
但我们顶多只是朋友，也许一个无谓的慰问，
能让我感觉友情万岁，总好过我们吵吵闹闹...
我也清楚我是个失格的伴侣,不会如何留着你，不善于安慰，
爆糙的性格，口不择言,永不改进，还有你说的过于计较...
所以在部落格上，该说的都说了...
别浪费时间在我这无赖身上吧...

所有的努力被批评,伤感...

近几个月来，眼泪都没流过...
但近几天，有些事让我的眼泪冲破了我的泪坝...泪流不止...
所有的努力都招人批评和看小...
上到高级学位第二年，路越来越坎坷...真的是前所未有的冲击...
第一，我所努力干了几晚的功课，竟然被组员说：“酱短而已？”，我所有的努力竟然被质疑?!
真的很伤心...所有呕心沥血的作业...一句谢谢都被“没收”了，难道我是酱不称职的？
虽说三两页，但我花了几夜的分析及参考些书籍，甚至还牺牲我几堂课...真的是悲痛莫名...
第二，我学位论文(Dissertation)的建议书，招到不少老师退回...
不用紧，终于有个建议书被老师认同...为了这建议书，我用了几天的时间到图书馆寻找相同的论文，
就是要让学院建筑系的总裁认同，他竟然看也看不一眼就打发我，还说我找到相同的论文很少，
还要我回到图书馆再找，那本厚厚的历年论文，我非常确定的说，相同的论文，真的数一数二...
历年的论文记载到六十年代...当我第二次回去图书馆仔细的看一次...结果还是一样...
还有3天，如果我论文的建议书无法过关，就要留级...我可以非常的确认他在整我...要不然我真的要自掏双眼
这个学期，我也不知为什么很多老师特别针对我...做什么都被批评...
甚至，我所谓的女友，在网上安慰的话真的少得又少，批评的话就一摞摞...简直是火上加油...
眼泪就不受控制的崩裂...
我只想我的心声只想与“你”分享...（我真的很想听见你的声音）...
对你，我只能说抱歉，也许之前在电话说的，你认为是谎言...但那时真的是如此...对不起...

＊誰可以當男朋友，誰只能當普通朋友。＊

＊誰可以當男朋友，誰只能當普通朋友。＊
普通朋友：半夜會找妳打BBS聊天到很晚。
男朋友：半夜看妳還在BBS上會趕你下線(當然妳可以柪個幾分鐘)。

普通朋友：他會找你出去玩,叫妳放棄報告或翹課。
男朋友：他會催妳快寫作業,或者想要跟你討論功課。

普通朋友：在你生病時，會講好話關心妳。
男朋友：在你生病時，他會關心到你很煩，而且逼你去看醫生

普通朋友：他會盡量說好話來討好妳，妳會覺得他很棒。
男朋友：他所說的話，都是關心妳的！但通常像是在命令妳，妳會覺得他幹麻這麼做。

普通朋友：他什麼事情都會配合著你，只要你高興。
男朋友：他會幫你辨別是非，但你會覺得他管太多。

普通朋友：他會說他要給你最大的幸福。
男朋友：他只能給你保證，妳跟他在一起，他是最快樂的

普通朋友：他會幫你買消夜，送宵夜，載你上下課。
男朋友：他會幫你買宵夜，不過他會提醒你，吃什麼比較健康。他會載你上下課，不過要他有順路，因為他不能為你而翹課。因為他翹課，他成績便會不好，成績不好不會有好工作。那你們將來日子怎麼會好過，他會想的很遠。

普通朋友：他只有想到現在。
男朋友：他已經預見將來，該怎麼自我努力，好給你幸福。

bZZ TRAINING period

Nowadays, i been training under "SATUJAYA SDN BHD" constractor firm involving in "AEON JAYA JUSCO" construction project.

This site was located at KERAMAT AU2, working period from 8am till 5pm or 7pm, travelling time 20 minutes away from where i'm stay...if travel through mrr2 during 7am, there was no way to reach site on the dot. The 1st day, i'm already experienced how mrr2 treated me...1 hours for juz severals minutes distance...WTF!

1st day, i never expected can meet the trainee that i recognise in my course except hong yew but another 3 also from his class...all really "fai cai" gang...lolz...expecially Kuan Sing, the big mouth fellow, his performance still unknown cuz 1st week he was absent because he part time in another job...we was only hanging around the site and inspect how tower crane to be erected. Yet, we unable to go in the site because we nvr gone thru safety instruction and the only things we can do juz stay at office and arrange those damn drawing...

The 1st ever expression toward the Project Manager was Very Fiercing and Bad Temper but this is my 1st exceptional case...hehe, Mr. Ooi my current site project manager...he was kind and helpful, i'm took the assessment of measure and estimating the scaffholdings in C60 system in Zone A, i made severals times mistake took me to do around 3 days...lolz, how useless am i...3 days also cannot work up any satisfy works. However, after his guiding, i'm total clearly know how to formulate the usage of scaffholding for each bay...1st time, i tot have to workout the estimation toward the total scaffholding...2nd time, i'm made a formula but not workable for others ppl...lolz...3rd time and de last ever...i made it...hope it wouldn't too late...

This is the 1st week duties i working, others trainees already supervising the site but still cool for me...i'm needless to go supervise the work in site and evade the opportunity to get sun burn. (Brian,one of the trainee already baked like bbq pork but juz supervise on site in 1 day) LOL XD

“別讓她/他成爲我們感情上的全部，我們只是他們的一個選擇"

好久好久沒在部落格留下心聲了...上課，作業，考試以及種種的壓力因素才激發到部落格寫下幾筆.
但我總是愛在部落格寫下感情的東西...因爲我的日常生活都是很納悶...
我蠻喜歡一句良言“別讓她/他成爲我們感情上的全部，我們只是他們的一個選擇"
所以就說,愛就愛,不愛就是不愛了...在感情上最最最不該對你不喜歡/不愛的人施捨“憐心".
醬的做法只是給他們种下了計時炸彈...當他們沉淪時，你突然抽出了施捨的手...
就像啓發了計時炸彈，把他們的心炸散了...讀書更別説了...可悲...

another laughing bomb~~!!

japanese game show...(jackie wu's show copied from it)
really godlike..."ten ten means 20, ten X 10 times means hundred"
damn lame wei!

malaysia advertisement , rock it!

无敌光碟英雄
damn yeng wei this video...

Moreover, another deep influence is from Digi's "dai kor"
part 1


part 2 (dai kor kena punishment liao)


this another achievement from digi...damn lolZZZ

lonely birthday...

recently been busy for working...timeless for blogging...
moreover, my dad just fall down from ladder...damn, i have to help him all day long...

This is de sadness birthday, only 1 present i received...
That night i juz went out for satay and burger alone...walk for a fews hundred yards...
Received all the wishes from sms and friendster...
but also feel like no1 really care sia...

sigh...isn't tat bad for my interact?

sobzzz

阿公，好走~~~

由于近来，工作繁忙...就连叹气的时间也没了...部落格再次调空...
九月二号，也就是农历七月二十一;伯伯去世的一周年又一个星期...我的爷爷安详的过完了八十有九的岁月...
最近，他才从同善医院回来，事因不小心跌到...一个坚强的人，就酱过了两个礼拜,才和我们孙儿们掰掰...
今天，妈妈才招了全部家里人回家吃饭...照我推理，爷爷不能了...我们可以做的，就一家人团圆齐享用与爷爷的最后一餐...当时，我只能慰问他以及喂他喝水,屋外的乌云以及我不安的感应，已经催逼他要离我们而去...
当我们享用完晚餐后，就回家冲凉然后再送我女友回家...但电话声打断了我洗澡的当时，妈告诉我爷爷不行了...我也赶去见他老人家...太迟了，他已经走了,我的眼泪就像洪水冲破防水墙般的源源不尽滴下来...我再次的对自己说："阿公走了，一场大雨带走了他"
待我送女友回后，就回去婆婆家...尽我身为长孙的责任...
看着爷爷冷冰冰的手，还有逝世时的遗容...仿佛让我超越时空回到去童年,爷爷的慈爱，双手抱起了我与我的堂弟...好怀恋,以及当年红毛丹树下乘凉的情景...深深烙在脑海里...
不久，喃麽佬的到来，就为爷爷的遗体清理然后穿上寿衣并且处理掉生前用过的东西，最后把遗体放进棺材...
好不容易忙完后,我就带同我的家人回家休息...身为长孙的我,明天也该要做很多东西因为要守棺我也该让自己休息...

"人生八十稀有少，处处记忆忘不了"

Finally...got time to post liao...

Recently really no time for any new blogs...but recall back on 1st of june, i been participated a mount.climbing...
Seriously, i really got no interest at any outdoor discovery adventure event nia...
Rm 160 paid for this unique experience...Really WTF!!!
WAT i TRULY gained is "this is my 1st time yet my last time sia"; but loss, wah lan nie...my shoe, pot and some equipment lost sia...summore, aikzzzz...visual worth than thousand words...
marhem ar!!! my ankle n my skin...aikz...

summore i discover de organization really pro in "encourage" ppl...always lied to me tat almost reach de peak...their "almost" took us around half day sia...

By de way, i was survive back from hell sia...de gradient of de path to de campsite really got >70 degree...even ppl also say "intermediate level" sia...really climb till cry..."Ta Ma de" summore keep cursing my pal whose brought me there...

In de end, nowadays only fully recover...so plzzz, if u about to climb any mount. dun destroy or damage anythings...really got curse sia...even ate pork also tio...

感情亮了红灯？

真的很不懂最近发生了什么事...浑身很不对劲，两个人好像很有距离感...仿佛同一个世界突然间一分为二...我明白她近来很忙，所以很不介意她在短讯或一般的通讯上少些联络...直到，昨天，我终于开口说出我的感受...
真的很不明白，为什么坏的感受会让两个人同一时间感受...
其实昨天，应该是很高兴的一天但回到家有种悲痛莫名的感觉...两个人在网上谈得很淡...突然间很不习惯，眼泪已经很不争气地划下来了...谈到一半时就觉得不想谈了，那时就想抱着枕头大哭然后睡...然后，她就先写了“我今天很高兴，但也很伤心”，我就接着上“我也一样，今天的统统的娱乐都有了但很伤心，眼泪不停的流”...接着接着,就发现了根源，就是“我们都是从两个不同的世界的人，话不投机，意见不和，兴趣不一样，还有我不够成熟”。
她很希望她的另一半是和她“意见一致，话题也源源不绝，相同的家庭背景和成熟的男人”。从开始到现在，她都很在意这些问题...
然而，我觉得在电话上倾述会比较好，一而再再而三的不接我的电话，终于第三次接了...大家都一致觉得感情亮了红灯，她有她坚持的立场，我也奈何不了...毕竟，她也蛮转牛角尖的人,一就是一...她觉得彼此没必要改善自己，酱会失去了自己...我真的不懂她如何想的，她也承认她不是一般的人反而是很难相处的人...
这五个月的感情不短也不长,我只是叹气的是我不能做到理解她的人而是她在旅行时结缘的男人...
一位三十出头的结婚男人并且还暗恋着我的女友...醋意肯定多多少少都是有,真的满佩服他可以对我女友讲出她心里和针针见血的话...我女友也澄清跟他没有暧昧关系，我也明白...她是怎样的人，我也逐渐地摸到了...只是需要时间让我去成长和了解她...她就是要她的“MR.Right”像那个男生般...我也不怪她...只是希望她能接受我的渐渐的改变，我也有我的“理想情人”啊...某个老友都说我和她很登对，还梦见我们在一起...我高心听到酱的话，但我现在有我真真爱的人，不想痴痴的追求“理想情人”，我很不想轻易地放手，但如果双方真的无法挽回时，酱就没得谈了...
结果，她就拿这几天的时间来考量我,在两个小时的谈话中也化解彼此的悲痛莫名的感受,还好我也蛮敏感的...察觉到这几天的不对劲，茶饭不思...种种不好的现象出完来...
真的好难受...彼此的距离有如十万八千里...
我也尽量的挽留，庆幸的是挽留到了...相反，我完完全全的失眠,我是很奇怪的人，睡眠时肯定会发梦，百分百...为了不让我在梦里胡思乱想，我的潜意识就让我失眠...
最后的一句，希望她能看到...
宝贝，就让时间慢慢地让我成长吧,成熟和慢慢了解你...人会随着岁月而改变,无可否认...
祝我们爱情长跑，请你等候吧...你也该让自己坚持的立场软化不然终究会错过很多美好的东西...
>.< 失眠~~~

" Girls VS Grown Women..." (good shit nia, no joke)

Girls leave their schedule wide-openand wait for a guy to call and makeplans.
Grown women make their own plans andnicely tell the guy to get in where he fits

Girls want to control the man in theirlife.
Grown women know that if he's truly hers, he doesn't need controlling.

Girls check you for not calling them.
Grown women are too busy to realize you hadn't.

Girls are afraid to be alone.
Grown women revel in it-using it as a time for personal growth.

Girls ignore the good guys.
Grown women ignore the bad guys.

Girls make you come home.
Grown women make you want to come home.

Girls worry about not being pretty and/or good enough for their man.
Grown women know that they are pretty and/or good enough for any man.

Girls try to monopolize all theirman's time ( I.e., don't want him hanging with his friends).
Grown women realize that a lil' bit of space makes the 'together time' even more special-and goes to kick it with her own friends!

Girls think a guy crying is weak.
Grown women offer their shoulder and a tissue.

Girls want to be spoiled and 'tell' their man so.
Grown women 'show' him and make him comfortable enough to reciprocate without fear of losing his 'manhood'.

Girls get hurt by one man and make all men pay for it.
Grown women know that that was just one man.

Girls fall in love and chase aimlessly after the object of their affection,ignoring all 'signs'.
Grown women know that sometimes the one you love, don't always love you back-and move on, without bitterness.

Girls will read this and get anattitude.
Grown women will read this and pass it on to other Grown women and their male friends.

How "Pathetic" am I

Recently, i really dunnoe receive so many comments from every1...
1st of all, my gf...I really not sure is she make complain or comment on me...but sound de same nia...
always said: " u aint know how to "comfort" me..."
lolX, i really dunnoe wat way she wana me to do... i juz only tried my best to make her happy nia...
Moreover, i really hate sum1 call me "fei zhai" behind of me...really is a forbidden words for me lah...keep calling me as "fei zhai" in msn while chatting wif her bro...aikz....sian, already told her not to call me fei zhai since last time she msn wif Lew Ong...Yet, always "ribut taufan" happen in her house...Especially "Hainan Taufan"
I know after i post this stuff she sure beh song 1...but for the sake of balance my emotional, i really gonna post it...

Marlo, nowadays so many "NOT REALLY CLOSE" friend keep asking me to attend their 21st birthday party...
Really MING DA MING (明打明）is really gonna earn my money loh...if they have de party juz like dinner, then i dun mind to "Pao" de ang pao around 50 bucks loh...summore invite in home nia...really so desperate to earn back de money meh?(生日都想赚钱吗) (though, i know sum of them got children liao lah, RECENTLY DIAPER's price raised up liao meh?

POKAING now...car need to maintain as well...lazy to go out nia...
God spare me a lucky number lah...With wealth then only can live life happily nia...

Exam liao...13 hours lead to doom...

From this moment onward...my long lost pal which is my "resit paper" = structural studies paper gonna come back again...
This paper really my nightmare, i been failed for several times liao...
i think if this time i'm gonna fail again, de consequences shud b "suicide" liao...or i can say mampus...this paper really make me mentally abnormal liao...look at it for awhile i sure gonna freaking out...i really hope tat after this time, no more for me...
i'm out...
Now my brain turbo really badly injured...juz look at de table i also die...headache T.T

For sure i full of prepare this time...

Mahai~~~! stupid structural studies...i'm gonna fight for pass this paperno matter how tough!!! Gan ni nia!!! CCB!!! Sohai paper!!!

lol...my japanese name..."tat was lame"

Your Japanese Name Is...

Shino Kajuji

What's your Japanese Name?

Guys and Ladies different?

Seriously, nowadays many guys complain to me tat ladies or gals are over-focus on her own?!but to tell de truth, i really felt so...

1stly, they thought guy always do assumption because of de guy curious about her situation...WE only wana know where u ladies r yet wat r u doing...juz tell de guys de truth...if not, de consequence really can lead to "u dump me or i dump u"...so later on, juz like many novel wrote " i had never regret tat had a relationship with u, we had our sweet memories". That piece of junk ending aint for this century, unless his gonad or her boob really huge lah...Then, i guess it gonna b a sweet sweet bed exercises...

Nowadays, we r running of gentlemen...Wat means of gentlemen? Izzit juz like wat in dictionary "a civilized, educated, sensitive, or well-mannered man"? Oh god, i wish could put this "gentlemen" into Museum...cuz they really extinct. Perhaps, we call them "ass stink" rather than "extinct"...lol XD
So ladies and gals appreciate ur Mr. Right...life is juz an endless lesson, still many things to learn but make sure learn from mistakes.

Moreover, de world is so fair, population of "pure and virtuous young woman" are nearly "0". Thanks to de society tat make women over-important nowadays (no-offense) but to tell de truth, since there is no flawless "gentlemen", ladies and gals had to learn to tolerate guys...There is no way to blamed him not "gentlemen" at all...

Guys also need to tolerate de women because "pure and virtuous young woman" out of stock...lol...
Even a report done from de newspaper, out of 8hundred female students in secondary school, there is only 1 gal is virgin...

So, y dun we stop blaming each others and start to learn how to tolerate...1 word of apologize "sorry" really can turn u become mute or deaf...But make sure try to be a good listener then only b a good teller...